Meet the Bloggers: Lizzie the Chameleon
My name is Elizabeth.
I am inconsistent. I am a contradiction. I don’t know what or who I am, but I do know that there is far too much of me to fit inside one body. I feel like a chameleon sometimes, constantly changing- but I have no natural color. At the end of the day, when I am simple and alone, I feel like everything and nothing at the same time.
There are bits and pieces of me that are solid, that I use as a tether to my existence. They are the answers to impersonal questions, questions like ‘What is your favorite color?’ (purple) and ‘What are your biggest fears?’ (the orthodontist/dentist, never falling in love, shattered glass, dancing babies, time, small things) and ‘How old are you?’ (fourteen, high school freshman, far younger than everybody else, it seems). But underneath it all, I am constantly changing and evolving, and I float my way through life and hope that nobody notices how very moldable I am.
I am a chronically lonely soul. Fictional people seem so very much more concrete than anybody I know in real life, and if I could, I might spend my entire life in my books and daydreams. But a very important role model of mine, the great Eleanor Roosevelt, once said, “Do one thing each day that scares you.” Thus I venture towards the doorway of reality and I smash my way into existence. Sometimes I am greeted with applause. More often I find myself in the middle of a crowded hallway- yet completely and utterly alone. The echos of my smash are footsteps and chattered conversations that I have never and will never be included in.
Role models, and their quotes, are very important to me. I surround myself with the words of people who are far greater, far more understanding, far more intelligent, far kinder, and far better than I could ever hope to be. Some of these are historical figures- Amelia Earhart, Anne Frank. Others are alive and changing the world as we speak- John and Hank Green, the great J.K.Rowling, who has not changed my life, but has, in fact, created most of it. I try to imagine my life without Harry Potter and there are so many empty holes that it scares me how different things might be if J.K. Rowling had never been born. Being so young, I can honestly say that I do not remember a life without Harry Potter, and I do think that is perhaps just as powerful as being old enough to have watched Harry’s rise to fame.
Although it may sound silly, Glee is also a large part of my life, due mainly to Darren Criss and Chris Colfer. I adore them, and they have both been incredible sources of strength and inspiration for me.
I am many things. I am a Ravenclaw and a Starkid and a Nerdfighter and a Gleek. I am a bookworm and a writer and a pipe dreamer and a peacemaker and a fighter. I join clubs and I do my schoolwork and I volunteer and I work hard and I hope that one day, against all odds, I can be the type of person that people will look up to, and write blogs about, and quote. I am so many things, and I want so many things, and I love so many things- cheesecake, and words that start with ‘c’, and pocket watches, and Broadway musicals, and cursive handwriting, and striped shirts, and scrabble tiles, and broccoli cheese soup, and rainy days, and cinnamon flavored toothpaste, and boys with curly hair, and clearance racks, and oxford commas- that sometimes it feels like altogether too much.
But I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Please join me in welcoming the awesome and amazing Elizabeth to the blog team! We’re so happy to have her here. Also, we will be resuming the ‘weird question weekly’ blogs next week, so please leave us some awesome questions in the comments! ~Kara